Hello, my own blog, long time no see. =D
Just want to update this space in case i forgot how life is good to me for now.
GJE is generally a happier person and a wee bit more optimistic as compared to the past. I just got enlighten by my bf especially after the long chat we had at Bang Kok. 9gags is teaching life lesson if you really pick up the right message. By the way #YOLO should not be an excuse for stupid people to do stupid things like knocking yourself up by having sex with a stranger after boozes.
So im getting down to what makes me a happier person, not like all of you give a darm. If someone is reading this because you’re bored, im fine with it. Just keep your comments to yourself. Here goes,
#1. “Loving myself” topped the list. I quitted the job which i “hated” for quite sometime, which means that i have more time for myself, sch, work and friends. I don’t compromise my sleep time for work for now i know what i will become if I dont have enough sleep. Im hanging out with my friends more. I had been too harsh on myself psychologically because I want to be on par with everyone else in everything. Gradually, I realised that this is impossible.
See what i did before i was 21st shall we,
~I tried taking up 3 jobs and study at the same time. Compromising my health, time and interest. Of course I need the money, but i think i got some financial management issues which is why i did not manage to have savings till now. My pay is only enough for me to settle my bill, transport, food and leisure which does not happen often in the past. How many times i rejected other’s invitation to go out because i just simply could not afford it? Timeless. I did not like the feeling of that, so if i got spare money and people ask, i will be there.
~I paid for my own driving,guitar and korean lessons which totalled up to about $2k plus. It is a big amount to me.
~With so many commitments, i still managed to maintain my GPA3 and i passed calculus. Trust me, it takes a miracle for me to pass that.
I am not trying to show off here, but i just want to convince myself that i worked too hard for my teenage days. Im actually quite proud of myself that I did all that, of course with the support of my dear friends who are always here for me. So now, im officially an adult since it had been 4 months past my 21st, it suddenly dawned on me that I only have about a year left to be a student and a non-working adult. It feels just like i only had 1 year of life left to do what I feel like doing without all the “adult responsibilities” pilling on me like how it did previously.This leads to point number 2.
I had some dreams that im too shy to share, the good news for me is that I’d took the first step. I am very satisfied already, if there’s more, it’s a bonus. No stress about it.
I am still learning on how to appreciate things in life. I’ve tried to be thankful for the darn hot weather and my dumb luck (especially my luck of waiting for cabs), but im still failing in that though.
Biii<3 mentioned today that my luck and his luck combined together is 0. =.=”’ thanks dear, tell me something that i don’t know. Back to appreciating, even if I keep bitching about my bf’s long stories, nags and explanations, I AM STILL VERY THANKFUL that this near perfect guy is in love with me and can tank all my nonsense. In the beginning, I really felt that he should have a better girl of a better calibre. but now, hey bitches, fuck off, this guy is mine.MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAs. We are going to be together for 2 years… soon, soon. <3
#4. Thank God for having him in my life. Religion is something that bothered me for quite some time. I believed that there is one God up there somewhere, just one. That God MIGHT not be the same one that you are believing in right now so don’t come and infuse your beliefs into mine. Your God help you through rough patches in life and so does mine, so lets’ not cross the boundary.
My point is that my life is improving everyday, partially because I changed my views on my life. Recently I developed a habit of thanking everything good that happened before I sleeps and tomorrow is a greater day.
yeah, I learnt it from Bong Qiu Qiu and it works for me. So i will probably thank her before my sleep tonight too. hahas. Now is time for me to read my case study and prepare to sleep. <3
GOOD NIGHT everyone. =D
P.S: The optimism of this post will probably only be valid till I become a working adult. That’s the part I dread the most.